By Carina Stopenski
bit lip split lip
i have waited for you
buck your hips
i’m sorry
that i can’t move mountains for you
i won’t tell you how
my body aches
every time you rail my cunt
because we’re both having
so much fun
asking is this okay
tell me what you want
let me service you
i am dead fish flopping
please do all the work
i tell you to pull my hair
draw my blood
do what you can
for me to forget
how badly it hurts
just to live
let me take care of you
i wish you knew
what you have gotten yourself into
you say keep going
and i’m trying so hard
but my body
can’t keep up
silicon assistant
feeling between fingers
you moan
into my neck
and i can feel the scars
from your sickness
do they call you resilient too
or do they expect you to be healed
after they depulped you
turned you from tumor to crater
medically-mandated gentleness
tear open my womb
unravel my insides
make me hollow
pull us apart wet sticky
whose blood is this
can you tell me
can you
help me forget
is this okay
let me take care of you
gather all my pieces
you’re the only one here
strong enough
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Carina Stopenski (they/them) is a writer, librarian, and educator based in Pittsburgh, PA. They hold a BFA in Creative Writing from Chatham University, an MSLS in Library Science from Clarion University, and an MA in Literary and Cultural Studies from Carnegie Mellon University. Their work focuses on queerness, disembodiment, and transhumanism. Carina's poetry has most recently been featured in The Closed Eye Open, Silver Rose Magazine, and the anthology Beyond Queer Words, among others.
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